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Chapter 10 : Jerit Dalam Hati!!!

My Fear say "Run"
My Intuition say "Run"
My Mind say "Where?"
U r rite Mind (Mind 2 namer org putih bg Akal)
Where should I run?

"Jgn tkut kak, jgn tkut..." katanya
Dia tunjukkan aku album gambar famili dia...
Tgh aku menatap, dari ujung mata aku tgk dia duk tgk aku jer...
Actually I'm not focussing on da album
Otakku melayang camner nk lari dari sini...

Tetibe dia pindah duduk sebelah aku
Terlalu dekat sampaikan aku dpt rasa nafasnya di telingaku...
"Yg ni kakak sy," dia tunjuk kat gmbar tu
Tetibe dia buka helaian yg seterusnya dan masa tu juga tangan dia melanggar payudara kiri aku
Gasp! Babi!
Aku naik darah, tp bile tgk muka dia yg dh pelik tu, aku jadi takot nk bereaksi....

"Yg ni gambar mak ayah saya" katanya
"Dorang pi mana?" aku gatai mulut pi tanya pulak
Budak tu geleng. "Dh xde dh," suaranya perlahan
"Xder pi mana?" Ai, gatai mulut lagi...

Tetibe die gelak.
"Hahaha... Bukan salah sy, kak."

Sudah, bila masa plk aku kata salah ko?
Dia masih geleng2 kepala sambil ketawa.
Ketawa tu cam pelik. Ketawa geli ati tp dlm masa yg sama terdapat sendu di matanya...

"Bukan salah sy..." ketawanya masih berbaki...
"Xper la..." aku jawab sambil terus belek album yg mmg tak berminat pun nk tgk
"Mmg bukan salah saya, akak paham tak!" tetibe die membentak

Mak kau!
"Paham..." wlaupun x paham, aku cakap paham je la

Tetibe die bangun. Berjalan mundar-mandir
"Ayah tu hari2 pukul sy!
Mabuk je nk pukul sy, mabuk je nk pukul sy!
Xda duit pun pukul sy...Pukul mak," dia ke hulu ke hilir tak keruan
Ai, dh start sejarah keluarga plk...

"Mak pun sama! Marah kat ayah, tp lepaskan kt sy!
Ari2 sy kene marah. X buat salah pn kenen marah! Kene pukul lagi...
Tgk ni," dia tunjukkan paha kirinya yg berparut besar

"Ni tau apa ni?" tanyanya. Mata bergenangan air mata.
"Dia seterika badan sy...
Kenapa? Sy x buat apa2 pun!"

"Ni lagi," ada lg dia tunjuk belakang badannya.
Seriously, aku x nmpak apa2 kesan ganjil pun.
"Mak pukul ngn kayu masa sy tdo. Sy x buat apa2 pn, kak..." sambungnya membebel x keruan
Yg aku ni bila plk dpt jawatan pendengar setia?

Tetibe die tarik parang panjang yg dh berkarat yg terselit kt celah dinding...
Aku telan air liur...
Ya Allah, lindungilah aku ya Allah...
Dibelek2nya parang tu elok2...

"Kakak pun satu hal," dia bersuara. Masih lg membelek2 parang tu...
"Kalo kakak tak nampak sy tetak mak ngn ayah, xde la sy nk tetak dia sekali..."
Ya Allah!
Tetak mak ayah? Musibah apakah ini?
Aku hampir menangis...

Relax2...
Aku kene kawal emosi aku...
Jgn2 budak ni wat citer je...
Relax....

Dia menghampiri aku. Mataku asyik pandang pedang karat tu jer...
"Sy sayang dia, kak. Sy sayang kakak sy..." dia pandang aku tajam. Matanya bergenang dgn air mata
Aku tak tau aku nk senyum ke, nk takot ke, nk sedih sama ke, aku tak tau...

"Yang kakak pegi lari kuar nk panggil polis tu pasal ape?
Sy x sedar tgh pegang parang ni, tetibe... Piap!..." dia tunjukkan aksi Samurai Deeper Kyo memenggal lawannya.
"Terputus kepala kakak..." dia pandang aku semula.
"Bukan salah saya, kak..." air matanya mula jatuh...
Dia rebah melutut dan menangis teresak2...

Aku tak tau nk buat apa...
Rumah berkunci, parang di tangannya...
Perlukah aku bersimpati?
Atau takut...?

Baik aku pikir camne nk kuar dr sini...
Akal!

Chapter 9 : Handsome Boy to the Resque.. (tanda soal)

I continue walkin 2 matahari terbenam...

It's too hot n borin'
I feel to lonely
Nk nyanyi la....
"Lonely....I'm still lonely.....
I am nobody... on..."
"Assalamualaikum kak..." suddenly there's a voice...
"Waalaikumsalam.."
Ei, sape plak ni, bru je nak feelin'...
Wow, a pretty young boy... Gud lookin' arr... (Cing! Kuar tanduk setan aku tgk balak hensem!)
He's riding his motorbike...

"Nk ke mane kak? Sorg je ke?"
Tot wanna control ayu, butt.. I mean but it's too hot n I cannot control ape2 dh...
"A'ah. Nk ke arah matahari terbenam..." I answered
He's laughing suddenly...

"Hahahahahaha...
Cam citer Melayu dahulu kala plak nk ke matahari terbenam.
Ehem, apakah tujuan tuan hamba mengembara ke sana?
Menuntut ilmukah?
Ataupun membalas dendam?" He's tryin' to make a joke n continue laughin'
Ek eleh... Wat lawak lak pnas2 ni.. Aku bg 'Kame Hame Ha' skali bru tau...
Nsb la ko hensem...
If x, bru ko tau org Super Saiya 2 bukn skadar dongeng Toriyama Akira Sensei smata2...
He still laughin'... Wat's so funny?

There is 1 thin' bout man (male) dat I can't understand...
While I'm in LI at Turtle Sanctuary, there were En Zack, da ketua pusat
He allllllways tell us jokes....
N u know wat, da jokes were not funny at all...

But En Zack wit my other 2 male friends (xkan nk sebut boyfrens plk kn...
FYI I'm still single n available...) were laughin' non stop cam nk pecah prot
Cam nk terberak pn ader...
Me with my other female friend (skali lg xkan nk sebut girlfren plk kn... FYI I'm normal...)
hav no feelin' at all...
We were allllways wonderin' wat so funny bout dat jokes?
Da fact is, It is not funny at all!

When dey saw we were x laughin
U know wat dey said?
"Ai.. korg pmpn ni xde sense of humor lgsung"

Excuse me? I had no sense of humor?
If I'm not havin' it, how can CT need 2 tahan her laugh at lib n while we were doin' PGN until her
face turned red ah?
How can my mom n dad laugh n laugh n laugh evry time I came back home?
How can my Adik Amir laugh n laugh n laugh untill he fainted, n mom blamin' me 4 dat?
Ntahapeapentah org laki ni? Xpaham beta...
X klaka dh la...
Nk gak menang... Amik la nk sgt!!

"Hello kak, tgh borak pn leh termenung?" da pretty boy wave his hand in front my face
Eh, eh, malunya aku...
"Bukan la... Pnat sgt x dpt pkir..." Cover cover!
"Ye ke? Dh kat ne td? Kebun klapa sawit? Ke atas gunung? Ke tepi pantai?
Tukar brape baju? Nari ngan sape? Shah Rukh? Salman?
Arjun Rampal la, hensem sket?...haha.." continue laughin'

Kuang asam nyer bdk...
Kali ni aku bukn nk bg 'Kame Hame Ha' lg dh! 'Silat Mahadewa Kaiou' terus!!

"Xla, Amitabh Bachan..." Aku sj nk sambung lawak dia yg x lawak 2
Lg kuat dia gelak, sampai beguling jatuh motor....
Ape bende bdk ni? Sawan ka??
Muka hensem tp gelak cam org sawan...
Now his face is not hensem anymore...

Suddenly he come toward me, tryin' 2 control his laugh
"Ha... ha... (cam org semput) Akak ni klakar la... Amitabh Bachan...hahahaha..."
Continue laughin'....
Ape ke hell? Aku plak yg klaka?
Aku x gelak pn...

B'guling-guling bdk 2 tekan prot...
Wei, bodo ker ape bdk ni...
M'ganggu urusan aku je....
So, why am I waitin' here?
No need 2 wait 4 dis boy la...
I start to walk away...

"Kak nanti kak, ala...mrajuk la tu?"he's tryin' 2 stop me...
Mrajuk mendenyer?...
"Jom ah sy bwk akak p ke matahari terbenam... Sy pn nk ke sana" dh serius blk
"Awk nk bt ape gi sana?" I ask. Mayb he knows da way out...
"Dh 2 akak gi sana nk wat pe?" a very big question mark in his face..
"Nk cari jln kuar dari cni..."
"Laaa...dh masuk xyah la kuar plk... Kawin je dgn org cni. Saya ader..." sengih
Eeiiii, gatal!

"Jom ah sy bwk," now he's serious...
But me wit him? On a bike? Oh, I dun like dis...
But it's gud to meet sum1 dat can help n accompanied me....
So wat now?

"Naik la..." he ask...
"Hmm, xyah la... X biase... Lgpn x knal... Tnjuk jln je la... arah mane nk kuar?"
"La... sy muda pd akak la... Kakak sy pn sbaya akak je... Jom ah. Alang2"
Hmm...let me think 1st.
Ok gak kn, bukn ape pn. Nk tlg antar je... Bukn wat maksiat....
"K la..."
Aku pn naik...

Bout 15 mins (hm.. lama 2) he turnin' to da forest kinda area...
Ah, sudah....
Pelik je....
"Jln ni ke?..." I ask
He nod...
Bout a few mins he stop at a small house in da forest

"Mana jln kuarnyer?" I ask after observin' dat dis place is so cold n dead...
He smile...
I dunno wat da meanin' of dat weird smile.
Wat I know is, dis is not gud...
"Jap ek kak, saya nk amek brg jap. Akak masukla dulu." he said wit a weird smile
"Eh, xpe xpe. Saya tggu luar. kejap je kan." I refused
"Sebenarnya sy nk makan nasik." he said
Pulak dah! Td kate nk anta aku. Ku luku jgk bdk ni

So what should I do?
He's still waiting for me at the door.
"Ala, jgn la takot sgt. Mak sy ada kt dlm tu ha."
Fuh, I feel relief.

I enter da house. It's just a small house with old furniture...
Wait!
The furniture are too old and not cleaned!
He locked the door n insert the key in his pocket
Oh... this is not good....

"Mana mak awak?" I asked, trying to control my feelings
"Mak?... Mak kuar kot" then his weird smile again
He enter da kitchen....
I have a bad feelings bout this..
And searching for a way out, but cant' find any

Suddenly he came out.
Wearing only boxer?
What da F!

Ok
Am I a victim?
Is he tryin' 2 kill me or wat?
But he is so gud lookin'...
How can dis gud lookin' guy can bcome dis mean?

"Naper akak cam takut je?" He ask
Oi bodo?
Dh ko wat rupe cam org psyco, itik pn takut!

"Awk nk wat per ni?" I ask, tryin' to control my frightened
He must never know dat I'm afraid...
I need 2 remain calm n steady....
I must show him dat he cannot shake me....
"Nk wat pe? Hmm... Tgh pkir la ni..." he starin' at me deeply...
Shit!!!

My Fear say "Run"
My Intuition say "Run"
My Mind say "Where?"
U r rite Mind (Mind 2 namer org putih bg Akal)
Where should I run?

Chapter 8 : Kemunculan Nafsu

We're starin' at each other
for about..... (tgk jam).... 54 sec...
Huh, juz now say dun wanna help me...
Now, wat r u waitin' 4?
X nk blah lg?!!

Actually, I'm still hopin' dat he could change his mind once again...
Or mayb he wan me 2 rayu him...
Ya, I've tot bout rayu him, but da prob is I never rayu any1 b4
So, I dunno how 2 rayu...(Rayu dlm English pn aku x tau ape bende...)

But, he still waitin' with slumber badak air face
So...
Wat should I do?
Surrender or stick 2 myself?
Hmm......
.............
Stick!!!

"Xnk tlg xpe la... Sy tanyer org ln..."
I said, proudly... with slumber badak sumbu face plk...
"Ok," he smile...
turnin' around n..... leavin'....

Wat???
Hey,wait!!! I shout but dlm ati je...'
N he continue walkin'....
Walkin' n walkin' n walkin'
Without turnin' back....
Oh, man!
Wat a waste....

"Ok, Langit" suddenly a familiar voice..
"why r u so stubborn?!
U ask 4 sum1 2 appear n show u da way...
Now he was already here in front of u, but look wat hav u done?......." said dat voice...
Do u know who's voice is dat? Guess......
Ya, it was Akal....

Sorry Akal.....
"No need 2 sorry la.... Stubborn girl!" frustratedly....
Adoi... naper la aku cam gini?
Dari dulu lg....

"Hahahahaha...bcos of me! Hey, at least we win wat...."
Who's voice is dat la plk?
"Dat was Nafsu..." Akal said, still frustrated....
"If u still cannot watch over ur Nafsu to behave well, u will never find da way out,
do u understand me?" continue Akal...

Ha? How can?
"Bcos, Nafsu will ruined evrythin' dat u've build.... She is always like dat... She is da stubborn in u...
U will never succeed in evrythin' u do if u cannot control her well!
Pls la, Pls control ur Nafsu.. I beg u" said Akal...
(ha, muncul pn rayu dlm omputih. Dh aku kate Akal ni pandai)

"I am not la!!!" Nafsu shoutin'!
"I already behave well...
But dat young man make me angry...
Always keep on askin' n talkin' n bubblin' but dun wanna help us...
Den he wanna threat us... n wan us 2 beg him!
No way man!
If wanna help, help la.... Dun play jokes!!!" Nafsu shoutin' again...

Hmm.. I think Nafsu is rite....
"Dun!! Dun ever listen 2 ur Nafsu Langit!
U better listen 2 me... I'm ur Akal..." Akal start panic

"Hey, u r so arrogant n selfish u know! Always wan Langit 2 listen 2 u only...
Hey, if Langit only need 2 listen 2 u, so wat am I doin' in her?
Juz as a Barbie Doll?"... Nafsu is out of control

"Ur function is 2 make Langit feel, my function is 2 make Langit think...
Langit emotion is in u, but da rasional is in me...
We have 2 decide da best 4 Langit...
Da combination of u n me will give Langit da best decision..." Akal give an explaination

"Ha, now u mention me!
Juz now u ask Langit 2 not listen 2 me, but only listen 2 u!
Now u said da different thing?" Nafsu is defend herself...

"No la.."
Juz now u did da wrong thin', dat's why I dun wan Langit 2 listen 2 u...." Akal

"Ya la, I always doing wrong!
U always doing rite!
Den u talk about ur stupid combination, but da decision is always in ur hand.
Never tot bout me!" Nafsu

"No la, sumtime u r rite also...." Akal

Wei, wei!
SHUT UP!!!!!!
BOTH OF U!!!!!
(Dat's me...)

(Silent)

Ok
Now we r not suppose 2 gaduh2....
We better continue walkin' ok...
We will get nothin' with dis gaduh rite?

(Silent..)

"Rite?!!" aku pn dh nk naik darah....
"Sure," say Akal
"Ok la.." say Nafsu
I continue walkin 2 matahari terbenam...

Chapter 7 : A Mistery Hensem Young Man...

He stand up n start followin' me
Oh no... Ok, relax Langit... U can handle dis... Small matter la....
"Ke mana? Ala, x lari matahari tu? Jom ar..." he keep on tryin'
I look at him beside me
Sengih... Alamak, gigi karat...
Thin' dat I hate most!!
"Xpe la, kwn dh tunggu. Nk cpat ni..." I'm startin' to rush
"Ala, jom la..." He try to hold my hand...
"Ei, ape ni?...." I hitch

"Kenape ni?" Suddenly, new voice...
I turn
A young man, not very tall but fit, tanned skin wit big spec..
Very short hair, boy cut style (cam bdk baru masuk skolah)
Look like nerd but serious...
"Ko apehal?" Dat stupid Pak Cik ask wit anger
Da young man look at me seriously "Cik kenal die?"
Wow, his eyes... So wonderful...
Sharp n full of confident... Juz like an eagle eyes...

"Cik?"
"Ah, x kenal...." I'm tryin' to cover
"Jadi," he turn to da Pak Cik, "Jgn ganggu org la, boleh?"
Alamak skemanya....
"Kalo xleh, ko nk wat pe?" Pak Cik bcome more fierce
Da young man look into da Pak Cik eyes deeply...
Wow, cool....
Suddenly, Pak Cik look like remembered sumthin'
Pak cik surender.... Cpt2 blah...
Ai....cepatnya mengalah.. ?
Cam x cayer je? Sape die ni?
Mahatma Gandhi? Imam Mahadi? Mr Bean?...

"Emm... terima kasih yer" I give him my sweetest n sincere smile
"Cik ni nk ke mana sebenarnya?" dier tinggikan suara tetibe...
Aku gelabah kene sergah gitu... "Arr... nk pegi sana..." tunjuk arah matahari...
"Sorang?" serious
"A'ah...." gelabah
"Xde kawan? Sedara ke kt cni?" serious
"Xla, sy bukan asal cni. Sy nk cari jln kuar" still gelabah
"Dh pndai masuk, x reti keluar plk?
Awk x kaji ape2 ke sblum masuk?
X tanyer ape2 kt org ln?
Masuk redah gitu je?
Sorang plk tu?
Igt dh besar sgt?
Igt bleh wat ape2 sesuke ati?"

Ei mamat ni... Mcm polis lak...
Pe hal nk marah aku? Sukati la...
"Sy x biasa dgn tempat ni!" dh kurang glabah dh.
Dh naik angin sket...
"Dh tau x biase, tp nk masuk jgk. Pas2? Ape yg awk dpt kat cni?"
Ok, relax Langit... Nafsu Amarah aku dh warmin' up nk naik ni...
Cool baby, cool...

"Jawab la saya tanyer?" dia menengking, simbah minyak petrol super...
"Aku xnak jawab bleh?!!"
Suara aku bergema di sekian alam... Kemarahan dh m'hampiri had tepu...
Die senyum sebelah, kanan...
Cacat ke aper senyum sbelah?

"Klau saya xde td aper jd pd awk?" msih senyum sbelah...
Ek ele... Mngungkit lak mamat nih... Meh aku balas
"Ooo..... sy igt awk ikhlas nk tlg. Sy btrima ksih la sgt....
Xtau lak awk sj nk b'lagak.. So, tarik blk la trima kasih 2.
Lgpn pak cik 2 bukn wat ape pn. Usik sket je, dh biase la"
Aku bt acuh x acuh...
Die stop senyum.....
"Ooo jd dh biase la ni kene usik? Suker sgt la kene usik!" suara masih tinggi
Xde idea nk ckap la 2....

"Ei, En. Polis! Sy xtau ape bende yg awk nk, ok..
Sy cuma nk cari jln kuar dr cni... If ada org tlg sy, sy amat mhargainya...
Tp sy xpaham ape bende yg awk nk bebel s'olah2 sy ni penjenayah?
Padahal sy cuma sesat jln n sy bukn sengaja nk sesat
Jd drpd awk mbebel mcm mak nenek,
baik awk tnjuk sy jln kuar klau awk betul2 nk tlg org, bleh?,"
Aku kawal diri dari nk jd org Super Saiya...

Aku mmg baran n lupa diri bile dh marah...Sbb 2 la aku diam ble marah.
Xnak korg kecik ati dgn lidah bisa yg produce high toxicity ni ble dh dirangsang dgn amarah.

"Hm..sy mmg nk tnjukkn awk jln keluar ni.." muka die dh frenly sket...
Cing! Mataku bersinar.... Thank God...
"But I've change my mind." katanya dgn slumber badaknyer...
Wat da hell?!!
"Sy fikir, sy x perlu nk tlg org yg kurang ajar dan tak berterima kasih macam awk ni..."
Mukanya masih selamba badak air...

Ok...
skrg aku plk yg kuang ajar...
Pdhal die yg nk marah aku dlu n layan aku cam sampah...
Now aku yg kuang ajar.....
Ok.....

Aku sumpah seranah dia dlm ati je la....
Korg xyah tau aper bnde aku ckap...
(Ooo..aku patut tulis citer ni in English kn? Naper aku tukar plak ke Malay?)

I'm starin' at him....
He starin' at me....
Like cat n dog....
I choose cat, miauuu!!!
Die jd yg satu lg la (yg haram 2), pdn muka!

We're starin' at each other
for about.... (tgk jam).... 54 sec...

Teruskan jugak!

I look at 1 of those girls n smile
She look at me, but not smiling back
Paling tmpat lain, pretendin' not seein' me...
Kuang ajar tul...
Pkai bju kurung, siap sarung tgn sarung kaki lg
Tp senyum pn xnk...
Cantik prangai...
Nk wat camne, mak dier dh ajar gitu...
Sorry yer, ni kisah btul...

Den I look at other girl, she smile...
Ei, baiknya... Xsmpat aku nk senyum dlu...
So I ask her 4 direction
"Ntah la awak, sy x penah kuar dr cni..." She say.
"Dh 2, awak mmg dok cni la? Dr dlu lg?"
"A'ah. Mak kate kt luar bahaya. Baik dok cni je sbb dh biasa... Lgpn rmai org sy knal kt cni.
Klau jd aper2 xtakut sgt. Diorg ada leh tolong."
"Xnk try ke jln2 kt luar? Mane tau klau nmpak ape2 yg awk suka? Mane tau awk lbh suka
tmpat ln? Byk jln kt luar 2... Ada yg ramai org masuk... Ada yg sket org msuk... Ada yg xde
org masuk pn. Tp x salah cube kn..."
"Penah gak pkir, tp xbrani la. Lgpn sy pmpn... Xdaya nk jln sorg2. Awk x penah dtg cni ke?"
"Hehe.. xpenah. Tu yg sesat ni... Lgpn x biase gak jln ni"
"Xkn xpenah blaja nk lalu cni? Klau x blaja baik jgn lalu... Bahaya.."
"Mmm...sy sj je nk try... Maner tau sy suker ke?"
"Ei, sy pn x pilih jln ni. Mak yg suruh. Mak n abah dh pilih jln ni, so sy pn pilih jln ni la jgk.
T'jamin sket... Awk kuar blk la... plih yg awk biase, yg ada org bleh tlg.."

No way, bebey...
I've already told u dat I always choose the harder path
It's not worth 4 me to live 4 50, 60, 70 yrs with doin' da same thin' until I die...
It is too cold, too borin' 2 b safe
I wan sum adventures, difficulties, a little bit rushin'
After I struggled
After I cried
After I succeed in dat situaton
Den I can smile n proud of myself
Den I feel dat I'm alive...
Dat's me... (Cewah!)
Tp aku x ckap gitu kt pmpn 2
I juz smile at her n nod my head...

I go out from surau n walkin' to matahari terbenam
While walkin' I saw a guy dok cat pagar...
I walk past him
Suddenly
"Hai, sorg je? Sombongnya..." I think dat is his voice
I'm turnin' at him...
Alamak, muka burok giler... dok sengih kt aku...
"A'ah" I answer wit senyuman yg x menawan lgsung, continue walkin'
"Lepak la jap, abang pn borin' ni. Sirap ader ni. Nk?" die sengih, cam suker sgt...
Abang? Tolong la.... Dh bley panggil pakcik dh....
"Xpe la, saya nk cepat ni." I refuse, continue walkin'
He stand up n start followin' me
Oh no... Ok, relax Asmah... U can handle dis... Small matter la....
"Ke mana? Ala, x lari matahari tu? Jom ar..." he keep on tryin'
I look at him beside me
Sengih... Alamak, gigi karat...
Thin' dat I hate most!!
"Xpe la, kwn dh tunggu. Nk cpat ni..." I'm startin' to rush
"Ala, jom la..." He try to hold my hand...
"Ei, ape ni?...." I hitch

"Kenape ni?" Suddenly, new voice...

Chapter 4 : What Now????

Bzzz.... Bzzz... Bzzz....
Ha, ape bende tu?
Oh, my phone vibrating... Ya, I'd set as silent

1 message recieved
Hope from sum1 who can show me way out of here
From Maxis
"Tempoh aktif akaun anda hampir tamat. Sila dail ....."
Ape bende??? Org dok kecut perot die dtg wat suspen lak!
Eh, x... Aku x mrah. If bukn sbb Maxis, jgn hrp la aku dpt contact org ln dlm susah2 ni...
Thank u Maxis, wlaupun abis PTPTN aku bli topup nk called my mom... Peace >_<

A'ah la
Actually I'm still lost in da middle of no where nih...
So, wat now?
North? East? South? West?
Barat Daya? Timur Laut? Tenggara? Ape bende 1 lg? Barat Laut ek?
Nk kot mane ni?
Hm..let me cool down n think...
I sit down n do Yoga...
...
...

Suddenly
I remember a fairy tales story
"Once upon a time ... Lucy ... poor ... stepmother ... forest ... lost ... cry .. tired ... dark ....
... a cage... enter ... sleep ... wake up ... new place ... saw 6 doors. While Lucy thinkin' which
door should she choose, she saw a cute little cat. The cat walking through the third door.
Oh, I better follow that cat, she said to herself ... walking ... saw food ... a door ... out ... hear
daddy voice ... meet ... happily ever after.

Right!
I better follow any animal dat past by
I wait ............
N wait.............
N still waitin'..............
.....................but there r nothin' in passing by

Damn it!
Animal pn dun wanna choose dis path!
Only me! A stubborn little girl!
Haiya, wat now?
Fed up la!

Oh, no no no...
I can't fed up now... I am da 1 who choose dis path...
N I will find way out...
I will continue searchin', searchin' n seachin' until I found da door
I will continue thinkin', thinkin' n thinkin' until I found da solution
I will depend on my own energy, my own spirit, my own intuition
I will depend on myself
N of course wit my beloved... God, Allah SWT da One n Only...
If not, my Akal will come out n shout again
I dun wan dat 2 happen again...
Not in dis situation...

Ok, I better do Yoga once again
...
...

Suddenly
I remember fairy tales stories (again? Cam penah baca je part ni?)
No, dis 1 is Kisah Dongeng Melayu
N dis time I'd remember 3 story at 1 time...(Ceh, cam bangga je...)

Kisah 1: ... Malam itu, Awang Budiman bermimpi didatangi seorang tua berpakaian serba putih.
Orang tua itu mula bersuara,"Wahai anakku Awang, jika kau mahu tahu jawapan bagi
persoalanmu itu, pagi esok sebaik sahaja bangun dari tidur berjalanlah kamu ke arah
matahari terbenam. Berjalanlah sehingga kamu terjumpa dengan sebuah rumah dan
masuklah ke dalam rumah itu. Sesungguhnya ada sesuatu yang menunggumu di sana."
Sebaik sahaja orang tua itu menghabiskan kata-katanya, dia terus hilang....

Kisah 2: ... Arjuna berkata, "Wahai guruku Si Panglima Buta, dimanakah boleh aku
mendapatkan delima sakti yang mampu menumpaskan naga berjalur hijau itu?"
Si Panglima Buta diam. Arjuna mula resah. Dia benar-benar ingin mendapatkan delima
yang mampu memberinya kuasa untuk mengalahkan naga berjalur hijau milik Si Tanjak
yang telah membunuh kedua ibu bapanya.
"Baiklah, jika kau benar-benar ingin mendapatkannya. Pergilah kau ke arah matahari
terbenam. Sesampainya kau di sebuah gua, kau akan bertemu dengan satu dugaan
dan hadapilah dengan bijak. Sekiranya kau dapat melepasinya, barulah kau akan
ketemu dengan delima sakti itu. Tapi ingat wahai Arjuna ..."...

Kisah 3: ... "Siapa kau? Bagaimana kau tahu namaku? Bagaimana kau tahu apa yang aku
mahukan?" Adi Ketuat bertanya dalam ketakutan.
"Siapa aku? Itu tidak penting. Yang penting aku tahu cara untuk membuang ketuatmu
yang membencikan itu." puteri itu berkata sambil menjeling tajam. "Kau mahu tahu atau
tidak, wahai Adi Ketuat?" puteri itu seolah-olah memancing.
Adi terdiam sejenak. Kemudian dia berkata "Sudah tentu aku mahu. Sudah sekian
lamanya aku benci pada diriku sendiri."
"Baiklah, jika begitu. Pagi esok selepas subuh, berjalanlah kau ke arah matahari
terbenam. Apabila hampir tengahari kau akan ketemu dengan sebatang sungai.
Mandilah kau disana dengan dimulakan langkah kanan. Kau akan nampak hasilnya.
Dengan syarat...."...

Dat r 3 Dongeng Melayu dat I read wen I still in primary school
Da focus is on "berjalanlah ke arah matahari terbenam".
Wa, maybe gak. Go ahead n try la.
Who knows I may find da way out kan?

So I start walkin' to da matahari terbenam (Ceh, rs cam Awang Budiman la plk...
FYI, for 3 yrs (start from Standard 2) I feel myself like Awang Budiman. A very budiman young man
U dun know la cos ur not read dat book. Very very meanin'ful to me...)
Den I saw a house... a wooden house...
Hmm...better ask sum1 from there...
Mayb dey know way out from here....
But it is not a house
It is a surau...

Ooo.. IC...
I'm not solat yet...
Oooo...dats why You lead me here eh?
Thank You Allah SWT....
You always remember me, but I'm not remember You as much as You do...
Shame on me....

I go in to solat
There r bout 10 girls
Some r prayin, some still wudu', some r gettin' ready
Dis is a gud one
After wuduk, I wearin' my own telekung
I hate to use surau's telekung
If u r girls, u know why... unless u r used to it
While I'm wearin' telekung, there is a girl who suddenly...

Chapter 3 : Akalku bebel....

Almost every nite I'm askin' da same questions
"Wat am I doing wrong?
Do You hate me?
Wat r u tryin' to tell me God?"
Crying, crying, crying n keep askin' dat questions......untill I zzzzzzzz.....

"Search it 4 urself la!!!"
Shock!
Wat da hell?... Who said dat?
Nobody around......
It's gud la nobody around, wat if there IS SOMEONE around? The unidentify one?
X ke mampus aku terkejut!!!
(Ni bukan citer seram ek, relax bebey...)
Mayb mimpi kot...

"No la! It's me!"
Shock lg! Sape plak ni? Jgn nk main2 la mlm2 ni bebey....
"I am ur Akal..."
Akal?..... Kuatnya akal aku jerit? ....
"Can u juz stop cryin'?
Always cry n cry n cry evrynite!
U know or not, from mornin' till nite I've been workin' non-stop!
For da sake of ur assignment, final project, ur study, presentation, final draft;
n last time in school everyday do homeworks.
It has been more den 15yrs I've workin' non-stop.
N I need rest also....
I need to sleep...
So dat, next mornin' u can feel much better...
But u ar... wen I need sleep, den u cry! Wen I need sleep, u cry!
Everyday sleep at 3 or 4 o'clock!
Den wake up at 6... Den sleep again...
Den wake up at 8 again! How can I rest like dis?....
My Akal bubbling... Aku dgr je ler... M'lawan karang kene sekeh lak...

"Everynite ask God da same question
"Wat am I doing wrong?
Do You hate me?
Wat r u tryin' to tell me God?"
Alllllways da same question!!!
But den did u get the answer?
Is He give u the answer? Hah?"
Amboi, garangnyer.... I geleng (x tau 'geleng' 2 mende omputih ckap. Dlm Kamus Dwibahasa
Oxford Fajar Edisi kedua (KDOF) yang ditulis oleh Hawkins J.M, 1991 dan dialih bahasa oleh
Abdul Majid Baharom, 1997 tidak dinyatakan makna bg perkataan 'geleng'. Sila rujuk muka surat
55 sebelah kanan bahagian atas. Perkataan 'gelendong' muncul selepas perkataan 'gelen' . Ini
bermakna tiada perkataan 'geleng' di dalam kamus ini. Apabila kamus milik Siti Rahmah Mok
(CT) dirujuk, didapati ia adalah kamus yang sama kecuali yang dimilik CT adalah edisi yang
ketiga. Tetapi hakikat ini tidak mengubah apa-apa kerana perkataan 'geleng' tetap tiada.
Berkemungkinan perkataan 'geleng' tidak diterjemah kerana ia merupakan perkataan yang terlalu
mudah untuk dimasukkan ke dalam kamus bertaraf Oxford Fajar yang digunakan oleh pelajar
sekolah menengah dan universiti. Berkemungkinan juga perkataan tersebut perlu dirujuk dalam
kamus yang bertaraf lebih rendah seperti kamus bergambar kanak-kanak. Walaubagaimanapun,
setelah dikaji secara rapi, antonim bagi perkataan 'geleng' iaitu 'angguk' terdapat dalam KDOF
(sila rujuk muka surat 6 bahagian kanan yang paling bawah). Kemunculan perkataan ini mungkin
disebabkan kerana perkataan tersebut agak susah iaitu bertaraf sekolah menengah dan universiti
berbanding perkataan 'geleng'. Selain itu, berkemungkinan juga tujuan perkataan 'geleng' tidak
dimasukkan untuk mengelakkan kesan negatif kepada para pelajar supaya para pelajar tidak
sentiasa menggelengkan kepala apabila disoal, tetapi sentiasa menjawab dengan positif dan
penuh yakin. Harap maklum...)
Har har har... Korang baca ke? Xyah la... Buang masa je...
Tu reference n discussion skali.
Ok, kat ne td?

"Everynite ask God da same question
"Wat am I doing wrong?
Do You hate me?
Wat r u tryin' to tell me God?"
Alllllways da same question!!!
But den did u get the answer?
Is He give u the answer? hah?"
I geleng

"See, u know why?"
I geleng once more
"Bcos He already give u ME!"

Ha....? Allah gave me U? Akal aku already mad ar? Xkan pkir byk sgt until get mad?
"Hey, shut up la..." beta jerit dlm ati..
"U better go to sleep la! Or I slap ur face... Talkin' nonsense...
Tot u wanna help me get the di answer, but juz talkin' rubbish.... "
Aku marah la ni...

"Wait la, I'm not finish yet." Akal said
Look at u, always rushin' rushin'.
How can u know if u always rushin all da time.
To understand sumthin' u dun know, u need time u know?"
Ha? Lg la aku penin'.... K la, dgr je la...

"Ya, God give u prob.
So dat u can talk 2 Him n ask Him questions..
But He will not come in front of u n tell u everythin' dat u wanna know!
Wen He gave wahyu to Nabi Muhammad SAW pn, he ask Jibril to see da Prophet,
not by Himself."
La... masuk topik sejarah Islam plk... Dh, ape kaitannya? Susah ckap dgn Akal ni, berbelit!

"So He give u me, Akal; to think n search 4 di answer of all ur questions.
U understand me or not?"
Ooooo.....

"U ask God, did u done sumthin' wrong?
Den u ask urself la, wats wrong wit u?
Did u made people angry?
Did u made people cry?
Did u made people sad?
Did u said sumthin' nasty?
Did u said sumthin' dat not gud to other people?
Hey Langit,u have to remember dis.
If u did wrong to Allah, He can forgive u if u ask 4 forgiveness.
But if u did wrong to other people, u can only ask 4 their forgiveness.
Only they can forgive u. Not Allah.
Remember dis!
So, how can u feel calm, feel happy n feel peace if someone out there r mad at u?
Think la! Use me la!!!"

Oooo....gitu ke? X tpkir la plk....
"Ai...so wat am I doin' in ur head if u r x using me wisely?
Dun only use me in ur study, but anytime, anywhere!
U r human rite, dat's why Allah gave u me...
So dat u can think n decide which 1 is da best 4 u...
Dat's why Devil always come n ask u to do sumthin' bad
But u must used me to decide, is dis gud, or is dis bad?
N all ur decisions in ur life will determine whether u will be send to heaven or hell...
Allah not give me to animals
Dats why dey cannot think, dey also no need to wear clothes
Devil also dun wan to ask dem to do sumthin' bad
N dey 4 sure will b send to heaven ma...
B'cos dey decide nothin'
Dey live juz to eat, sleep n breed only
Do u understand me or not?"

Fuh yooo... pjg giler Akal aku bebel
Ya ya now understand...
I never tot dat my Akal can think dat far...
Dasyatnya Akal ni...
Syukur kepada-Mu ya Allah
Kerana memberikanku Akal untuk berfikir
Utk judge dan utk mnilai diriku sendiri
Alhamdulillah....

"Gud la, now u understand...Now I need to rest. Can u pls go to sleep?
Or u still wanna cry?" Akal asking
Aik, perli nampak? Pandai gak die...
"Ok la, let's go to sleep la..." I decide...
"Thank God.." Akal said...
N dat nite I had the best sleep in my life. Like a baby.
Worried of nothin'. Dreamed of nothin'...

Bzzz.... Bzzz... Bzzz....
Ha, ape bende tu?

Chapter 2 : I juz remembered...

T_T waaaa....... Nk wat pe skrg!!!! Xde org nk tlg....

Suddenly,
"Allahu Akhbar, Allahu Akhbar...................................................................."
Azan
A'ah la,
I always think of my mom
Think of my dad
Think of my frens
Think of my boyf...
But I less think of sum1 dat too close to me
Too close to my heart
Too close to my soul
Who followed me everywhere I go
Who listen to everythin' I said, and not
Who hear me scream deep inside
Who knows everythin' in my mind
Who knows everythin' bout me more than my mom
Who knows all my secret
My sins, my devil inside me,
Everythin'... No exception
He is Allah, the only God.....

Ya lah
Ustaz Si Polan (actually I forgot his name) has told me once (I mean us, all of my classmates)
"Ape sj kebaikan yg berlaku ke atas kita adalah nikmat yang Allah turunkan kepada hamba-Nya,
Kerana rs sayang-Nya, kerana rs cinta-Nya kepada kita...
Jd utk mnunjukkan kesyukuran kita kepada-Nya, maka ucaplah Alhamdulillah...
Dan ape sj keburukan yg berlaku ke atas kite juga merupakan musibah yg diturunkan kepada
hamba-Nya, kerana rs sayang-Nya, kerana rs cinta-Nya jg...."

"Tp klau Allah sayang kite, naper Dia bg musibah? Naper bg kite susah?"
Dat's was my voice... spt biase la aku nyampuk...

Ustaz senyum...(mayb die bengang gak sbb x abis ckap lg, aku dh nympuk..)
"Kerana kamu terlupa pd-Nya...
Bila seseorang itu dilimpahi dgn nikmat, dia terlupa bahwa nikmat ini adalah milik Allah yang
dihadiahkan kepadanya.
Bukan milik mutlak hamba itu.
Apabila terlupa, maka hamba itu akan merasa riak dan bongkak.
Dia merasakan apa yang dikaut itu adalah miliknya dan hasil usahanya sahaja.
Dia terlupa, tanpa izin Allah SWT, seseorg hamba itu x akan berjaya mencapai apa yg diinginkan.
Kerana semua yg berada di muka bumi ini, termasuk harta kita, jasad kita, roh kita, sifat kita,
dan segala-galanya adalah milik Allah SWT yg dipinjamkan kpd kita.
Dan apabila kita mati kelak, segala yg dipnjamkan ini akan diambil kembali. Dan yg tinggal hanya
amalan yg kita lakukan di dlm dunia dgn menggunakan pinjaman-Nya...faham?"

Penerangan 2 tlalu pjg lebar, n seriusly aku x pham (masa 2 la, skg aku dh msuk U dh phm la..)
"Bukn, sy tanye nape Allah turunkan musibah pdhal Dia sayang kita?" Aku wat muka tongong
Ustaz senyum lg (Senyuman yg sukar ditafsir)
"Langit, mak kamu syg kamu ke x?" Dia bertanya
Ape kaitan ngan mak aku plk? "Hmm, die ckap sayang..." ujarku
"Mak kamu pernah pkul kamu x? Atau pernah denda kamu ke?" Tanya ustaz lg
"X penah." Aku jwb
Ustaz terdiam seketika

"Ayah pernah pukul kamu?"
"Penah skali je..." Jawabku lg. Tp masih aku xpaham ape kaitan dgn soalan aku...
"Kenapa ayah kamu pukul sedangkan dia sayang kamu?"
Wah, soalan yg mencabar minda. Tp aku xnak kalah!
"Sbb dia salah faham..
Die igt sy bt jhat, pdhal adik sy! Lps dia tau, dia x mintak maaf pn!"
Ustaz terdiam
Hahaha, yes! (Masa skolah aku nakal sket.... So 4 kids out there, dun try dis at scholl ah!
Or I tell ur mom dat u naughty!... Skrg dh x nakal dah, now dh cool down a little bit)

"Ok, mcm ni. Ayah kamu pukul kamu sbb kamu buat nakal.
Sbb kamu xnak ikut ckp. Sbb x bt ape dia sruh...
Jd dia marah dan pukul kamu spy kamu x jahat lg...
Allah juga menurunkan musibah kpd hamba yang leka spy kita sentiasa igt bahawa Allah
sentiasa memerhatikan kita.
Allah tahu apa saja yg kita lakukan, apa sahaja kejahatan dlm diri kita, termasuk la niat
jahat dan kata hati kita...
Jadi apabila Allah menurunkan musibah, maka kita akan kembali mengadu kepada-Nya
Baru la nk doa, nk solat,nk mintak tlg...
Tp bila kita gembira,kita gelak-gelak,pergi parti,dan ada yg buat maksiat utk meraikan kejayaan.
Berapa orang yg buat kenduri doa selamat, yg berdoa mengucapkan kesyukuran?
Berapa org yg mengucapkan Alhamdulilah setiap kali mengecapi kejayaan?"
Sekali lg penerangan yg pjg lebar...
But now I totally understand...

I agreed...
I'll only think of Allah while I'm in sadness
Well, I mean of course la solat 5 waktu, puasa suma 2 aku buat....
But wat for?
For wat?
Everytime niat "Sahaja aku bewuduk, tunaikan solat, puasa....... KERANA ALLAH TAALA"
Tp 2 niat dlm ati ke, niat yg ustazah ajar?
Itu niat yg sebenar2nya dr ati kita yg tulus ikhlas ke,niat yg PAFA tulis n kite hafal sampai skrg?
Ntah, confuse la...
Msti la ckap yg itu adalah niat yg dtg dr ati ( if ckap sj2 hafal nnti Tuhan marah plak...)
Tp Tuhan tau kn.....
Mana bleh tpu Dia, nk tpu pn xdpt...
Terernye Dia....

Suddenly I remember a song from Raihan
Meh aku nyanyi sket, ehem ehem..
Testin' testin'... (Ari 2 Shonan jahat sebut mende ln... Nakal ek ko!)
"Sebenarnya hati ini cinta kepada-Mu
Sebenarnya diri ini rindu kepada-Mu
Tapi aku tidak mengerti mengapa cinta masih tak hadir
Tapi aku tidak mengerti mengapa rindu belum berbunga

Sesungguhnya walau kukutip semua permata di dasar lautan
Sesungguhnya walau ku siram dengan air hujan dari tujuh langit-Mu
Namun cinta takkan hadir, namun rindu tak akan berbunga
Jika tidak mengharap rahmatmu, jika tidak menagih simpati
Pada-Mu ya Allah....

Kucuba menghulurkan sebuah hadiah kepada-Mu
Tapi mungkin kerana isi-Nya tidak sempurna tiada seri
Kucuba menyiramnya agar tumbuh dan berbunga
Tapi mungkin kerana airnya tidak sesegar telaga kauthar..."

Betul tu...
I've tried a lot to give my luv to Him
To give my pride to Him
To give my soul to Him
To give myself to Him
But I can't...
Why?.....

Dat is the only 1 He want from me
To luv Him...
He gave me everythin
And He only asking for luv...
But I can't do it...
Why?....
It's not bcos I dun wan 2, it's bcos I can't...

Ok, skrg aku dh melalut ke mana dah?
Jap aku nk scroll kt atas
Dah lupa dh kt ne td...

Ok,
I agreed...
I'll only think of Allah while I'm in sadness
Wen everythin' I'm doing is not rite
Wen it's not b juz like wat I wan it 2 b
Then I said
"Ya Allah, Ya Tuhanku... Kenapa kau buat aku mcm ni?
Kenapa kau seksa aku mcm ni?
Kenapa aku sorg je yg ada prob mcm ni?
Apa aku buat salah Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku?".
I cry to sleep, every nite....
Ya, evry nite...
Tgk muka aku x caya kn aku nangis?
Mak aku pn x cayer...

Almost every nite I askin' da same questions
"Wat am I doing wrong?
Do You hate me?
Wat r u tryin' to tell me God?"
Crying, crying, crying n keep askin' dat questions......untill I zzzzzzzz.....

"Search it 4 urself la!!!"
Shock!
Wat da hell?... Who said dat?

Chapter 1 : I'm lost...

I always searching for da harder path although there are other easy ways
That is why I always stucked in t the middle of no where
When this happen, as usual I feel so insecure
Afraid of what will happen next

I'd try asking someone
But they ignored me
Yeah...
They don't know me well, so why should they care about me?
They are right
I'm not blaming them....
But what am I supposed to do now?

I call my mom
"Kak Long kat mana ni. Ce patah balik kot jalan kak long masuk tadi"
"Ala, bukan la ibu... Bukan nk cari jln balik, nak cari jalan keluar la..."
"Same je la tu...."
"Tak same la... Okey, tak pe la ibu..."
"Ibu mana la tau ape yg Kak Long buat ni...."
I'm not turnin' back
I have no time for that
And the most important, I have to finished wat I've started
Takkan nk buat keje sekerat jalan

Then I call my fren
"Ye ke? Sian awk... Tak dapek den nak nolong..."

My 2nd fren
"Hahaha... Sesat? Tu la hang, orang bt bende biase, hang nk gak ikut utan tu.
Skrg nk mintak tlg aku pulak? Padan muka hang. Org habaq tak mau dengaq!"

My 3rd fren
"Yg awak masuk kot sana wat pe? Tak penah-penah dibuat org... Pandai-pandai sendiri la..."

My 4th fren
"Ei, bahaya la awk.... Beraninya..... Awk solat hajat la banyak-banyak.... Harap-harap jalan tu tak keras sgt..."

My 5th fren
"Ooo...yeke? Jalan ape? Sy tak tau pun ada jalan lain...."

My 6th fren
"Awk cakap dgn org ln la k,saya nak kuar dgn pakwe ni. Takde masa nk layan awk k..Jgn kecik ati, bye."

Ya, they are all my frens
My best frens
Frens to hang out...
Frens to laugh...
Frens toi cry...
Frens to cry...?
No no no... There are no frens to cry... This is not a Manga....

Then I call my dad
"Redah je la ape2 pn. Tanyer2 org pn bukn ada org nk tlg awk! Xde pekdah pn diorg dpt!
Kwn awk pn xnk awk lg ble dh jd gini... "
"Yg ayah nk mrah2 ni naper? Kak Long tgh dok kecut perot xtau ape nk wat ni"
"Ln kali klu takut dok sorg, ikut la kwn..Jgn ikut sukati Kak Long je...
Kak Long ni x abis2..Sjk skolah lg..."

He's rite...
If u wanna b a normal human being, juz do wat da normal human being do....
If u r doing sumthin' else dat dey not used to do, den u r not normal human being la...
If u r not normal human being, den u r crazy ma....
If u r x crazy, then u r mutant la...
As simple as dat... U cannot think aa?

Hey, no la!!!
I'm normal wat....
I'm not crazy, not mutant either
If mutant pn, I wanna b Wolverine!
Got claws, cool!!!

Back 2 da story...
Then I feel so sad
Nobody wanna help me
Nobody wanna save

Superman! Where r u?
Batman! Where r u?
Ultraman! Where r u?
Kluangman! Where r u?
Tomatoman! where r u?
Kamen Rider! Where r u?
Action Kamen! Where r u?
Shit! Nonsense! Useless!
There r nobody here....
T_T waaaa....... Nk wat pe skrg!!!! Xde org nk tlg....