The Road Not Taken

Salam,

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference
(Robert Frost-1920)

Beberapa hari sudah, ada member YS sebut ttg poem ni. And actually this is one of my fevret poem. Why? Because poem ni senang sket nk paham berbanding yg lain.

Dulu aku wat endah x endah je ngn maksud tersirat poem ni, n pas abes baca ktorg sume duk tertanya2 apakah yg berlaku kalo pakcik tu masuk jalan yg satu lagi yg xde org msuk tu?

Tp skrg aku dh tak tertanya2 lg. Sbb bru aku realize that I am the one who took the road not taken tu. Nape plk camtu? Jgn tanye la sbb mmg aku la org yg msuk jalan yg org lain tak masuk.

Dan akhirnya apa yg terjadi? Tak ada apa2. Moral yg aku dpt? Kalo nk selamat n nk idop cam org laen n xnk dipandang seolah ko ni alien; JANGAN SEKALI-KALI MENJEJAKKAN KAKI ANDA KE ROAD NOT TAKEN!
Ok? Aku malas nk explain KENAPA, tp jgn la msuk....ok?

Menyesal?
Hm... mmg x dinafikan kdg2 aku menyesal dan merungut, "Kenapa la aku tak ikot org laen? Kenapa la aku tak jadi cam org laen?"
Tp tetibe aku terlanggar dinding dan teringat bahawasanya aku mmg tidak dilahirkan normal Physically n emotionally.
Aku mmg tak mcm org laen...

Kalo bukan sbb aku mempunyai dada yg menawan, tiada siapa menyangka aku wanita apabila melihat misai dan bulu kakiku...
(seyes aku wanita...bukan khunsa spt sesetengah pihak sangkakan)...

Minat dan kecenderungan juga gaya berfikir aku lebih besifat maskulin berbanding feminine (sbb itulah aku lebih sesuai menjadi suami berbanding istri sekiranya aku berkawin - sekiranyalah..)
Jd aku pn xde la heran sgt bile pakwe ku tinggalkan ku tanpa usul periksa, cume emos ket la mggu pertama berpisah tu. Hik hik.....

Tetapi mmg emosi takleh lari dr emosi seorang wanita normal....

Kesimpulannya, bak kat Linkin Park;
I tried so hard and get so far, but in the end it doesn't even matter...
Itulah quotes yg paling sesuai utk menggambarkan keseluruhan idop aku selama 25 thn ini. Perlukah aku berhenti berharap? Tak perlu...
Sbb idop aku akan berubah menjadi lbh bermaksa selepas menyambut hari lahir yg ke-30 nnti...
Mane aku tau? Aku tau la....

Wassalam....