Chapter 3 : Akalku bebel....

Almost every nite I'm askin' da same questions
"Wat am I doing wrong?
Do You hate me?
Wat r u tryin' to tell me God?"
Crying, crying, crying n keep askin' dat questions......untill I zzzzzzzz.....

"Search it 4 urself la!!!"
Shock!
Wat da hell?... Who said dat?
Nobody around......
It's gud la nobody around, wat if there IS SOMEONE around? The unidentify one?
X ke mampus aku terkejut!!!
(Ni bukan citer seram ek, relax bebey...)
Mayb mimpi kot...

"No la! It's me!"
Shock lg! Sape plak ni? Jgn nk main2 la mlm2 ni bebey....
"I am ur Akal..."
Akal?..... Kuatnya akal aku jerit? ....
"Can u juz stop cryin'?
Always cry n cry n cry evrynite!
U know or not, from mornin' till nite I've been workin' non-stop!
For da sake of ur assignment, final project, ur study, presentation, final draft;
n last time in school everyday do homeworks.
It has been more den 15yrs I've workin' non-stop.
N I need rest also....
I need to sleep...
So dat, next mornin' u can feel much better...
But u ar... wen I need sleep, den u cry! Wen I need sleep, u cry!
Everyday sleep at 3 or 4 o'clock!
Den wake up at 6... Den sleep again...
Den wake up at 8 again! How can I rest like dis?....
My Akal bubbling... Aku dgr je ler... M'lawan karang kene sekeh lak...

"Everynite ask God da same question
"Wat am I doing wrong?
Do You hate me?
Wat r u tryin' to tell me God?"
Alllllways da same question!!!
But den did u get the answer?
Is He give u the answer? Hah?"
Amboi, garangnyer.... I geleng (x tau 'geleng' 2 mende omputih ckap. Dlm Kamus Dwibahasa
Oxford Fajar Edisi kedua (KDOF) yang ditulis oleh Hawkins J.M, 1991 dan dialih bahasa oleh
Abdul Majid Baharom, 1997 tidak dinyatakan makna bg perkataan 'geleng'. Sila rujuk muka surat
55 sebelah kanan bahagian atas. Perkataan 'gelendong' muncul selepas perkataan 'gelen' . Ini
bermakna tiada perkataan 'geleng' di dalam kamus ini. Apabila kamus milik Siti Rahmah Mok
(CT) dirujuk, didapati ia adalah kamus yang sama kecuali yang dimilik CT adalah edisi yang
ketiga. Tetapi hakikat ini tidak mengubah apa-apa kerana perkataan 'geleng' tetap tiada.
Berkemungkinan perkataan 'geleng' tidak diterjemah kerana ia merupakan perkataan yang terlalu
mudah untuk dimasukkan ke dalam kamus bertaraf Oxford Fajar yang digunakan oleh pelajar
sekolah menengah dan universiti. Berkemungkinan juga perkataan tersebut perlu dirujuk dalam
kamus yang bertaraf lebih rendah seperti kamus bergambar kanak-kanak. Walaubagaimanapun,
setelah dikaji secara rapi, antonim bagi perkataan 'geleng' iaitu 'angguk' terdapat dalam KDOF
(sila rujuk muka surat 6 bahagian kanan yang paling bawah). Kemunculan perkataan ini mungkin
disebabkan kerana perkataan tersebut agak susah iaitu bertaraf sekolah menengah dan universiti
berbanding perkataan 'geleng'. Selain itu, berkemungkinan juga tujuan perkataan 'geleng' tidak
dimasukkan untuk mengelakkan kesan negatif kepada para pelajar supaya para pelajar tidak
sentiasa menggelengkan kepala apabila disoal, tetapi sentiasa menjawab dengan positif dan
penuh yakin. Harap maklum...)
Har har har... Korang baca ke? Xyah la... Buang masa je...
Tu reference n discussion skali.
Ok, kat ne td?

"Everynite ask God da same question
"Wat am I doing wrong?
Do You hate me?
Wat r u tryin' to tell me God?"
Alllllways da same question!!!
But den did u get the answer?
Is He give u the answer? hah?"
I geleng

"See, u know why?"
I geleng once more
"Bcos He already give u ME!"

Ha....? Allah gave me U? Akal aku already mad ar? Xkan pkir byk sgt until get mad?
"Hey, shut up la..." beta jerit dlm ati..
"U better go to sleep la! Or I slap ur face... Talkin' nonsense...
Tot u wanna help me get the di answer, but juz talkin' rubbish.... "
Aku marah la ni...

"Wait la, I'm not finish yet." Akal said
Look at u, always rushin' rushin'.
How can u know if u always rushin all da time.
To understand sumthin' u dun know, u need time u know?"
Ha? Lg la aku penin'.... K la, dgr je la...

"Ya, God give u prob.
So dat u can talk 2 Him n ask Him questions..
But He will not come in front of u n tell u everythin' dat u wanna know!
Wen He gave wahyu to Nabi Muhammad SAW pn, he ask Jibril to see da Prophet,
not by Himself."
La... masuk topik sejarah Islam plk... Dh, ape kaitannya? Susah ckap dgn Akal ni, berbelit!

"So He give u me, Akal; to think n search 4 di answer of all ur questions.
U understand me or not?"
Ooooo.....

"U ask God, did u done sumthin' wrong?
Den u ask urself la, wats wrong wit u?
Did u made people angry?
Did u made people cry?
Did u made people sad?
Did u said sumthin' nasty?
Did u said sumthin' dat not gud to other people?
Hey Langit,u have to remember dis.
If u did wrong to Allah, He can forgive u if u ask 4 forgiveness.
But if u did wrong to other people, u can only ask 4 their forgiveness.
Only they can forgive u. Not Allah.
Remember dis!
So, how can u feel calm, feel happy n feel peace if someone out there r mad at u?
Think la! Use me la!!!"

Oooo....gitu ke? X tpkir la plk....
"Ai...so wat am I doin' in ur head if u r x using me wisely?
Dun only use me in ur study, but anytime, anywhere!
U r human rite, dat's why Allah gave u me...
So dat u can think n decide which 1 is da best 4 u...
Dat's why Devil always come n ask u to do sumthin' bad
But u must used me to decide, is dis gud, or is dis bad?
N all ur decisions in ur life will determine whether u will be send to heaven or hell...
Allah not give me to animals
Dats why dey cannot think, dey also no need to wear clothes
Devil also dun wan to ask dem to do sumthin' bad
N dey 4 sure will b send to heaven ma...
B'cos dey decide nothin'
Dey live juz to eat, sleep n breed only
Do u understand me or not?"

Fuh yooo... pjg giler Akal aku bebel
Ya ya now understand...
I never tot dat my Akal can think dat far...
Dasyatnya Akal ni...
Syukur kepada-Mu ya Allah
Kerana memberikanku Akal untuk berfikir
Utk judge dan utk mnilai diriku sendiri
Alhamdulillah....

"Gud la, now u understand...Now I need to rest. Can u pls go to sleep?
Or u still wanna cry?" Akal asking
Aik, perli nampak? Pandai gak die...
"Ok la, let's go to sleep la..." I decide...
"Thank God.." Akal said...
N dat nite I had the best sleep in my life. Like a baby.
Worried of nothin'. Dreamed of nothin'...

Bzzz.... Bzzz... Bzzz....
Ha, ape bende tu?